Saturday, October 25, 2003
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was going crazie if i hadta stay at home todae. AND SHUCKIESX! i got my *ahem* todae. sheeeeeesh. i'm so sadded. so decided to go out. apparently aishan too was going crazie, cuz she din go out at all this whole week. awwwww. poor thang. JIAYOU! study like mad kiesx? must do well. harharhar. =P and soooo. dragged her and sarah out. just to walk walk. cuz i reallie reallie needta get out of the hse or else i wld go mad. i guess even if got no one to pei wo. i wld haf just gone walk walk myself. +P lol. den decided to just go see see shanwei. and goshingneh. he's reallie the guy wif the beeeeeg heart. and he's bouncy too! like me. hehsx. =P but he's sooper dooper kewt larhhh. so nice summore. reallie down-to-earth. acknowledged all the fans everywhr, even behind the stage. reallie nice of him. and summore listens to the crowd. most stars wont bother. =P but he's darn kewt and frenly. and he reallie care abt his fans sia! reallie nice guy. hahhax. =P
bot my butterfly hp accessory, and i found another one to buy! an X wif a fishbone. meaning i still hafta get the 'rella' hp accessory, dat one i just saw, neck strap [dinah's helping me get frm aussie! love yaaaa! =]], dennnn summore got the chick one and urhhh got lotsa larh. my fone's gonna be heavieeeeee. hmmm. i reallie need the neck strap/lanyard thingie siaaa! i haf so many hp accessory to hang. cant sai into my fone animore. aishan nearlie died-ed hafing to sai threee! only THREE! hp accessory into my fone. =P WHEEEE! NECK STRAPPPPP! cuteeeeee. kawaii!!! hahahx.
Thursday, October 23, 2003
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oh wowie. sch was so friggin exciting todae. soooooo exciting. d.u.h it wasnt. nothing to do the whole dae. all ya do is crappppp. wads the use larhhh. i rather stay at home and sleep in my own bed. rather den hafing to wake up so friggin earlie and drag myself to bed. hais. but den now is the whole period i can slack when going to sch. frm the start of next year, i will embark on the journey of maths, bio, hist and studie like mad. hais.
wads the point of hafing such a strict lifestyle in sch when it just makes students hate sch even more? sch's not supposed to drive us to desperation and tears and hate. its sumthing dat we shld look forward to. sadly in singapore, dats how it is sia. =P
my lyfe is so friggin boreeeeeng now. nothing to do. all i do is watch tv, use the comp, SLEEP, eat, do business. and nothing else. rahhhhh. isnt dere anithing fruitful to be done? tsk tsk tsk.
Wednesday, October 22, 2003
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Monday, October 20, 2003
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and just now i was saying, its over, forgeddit, you cant change anithing, its all dere already. and now i wanna sae. SO WAD IF ITS OVER. ITS OVER, MY LYFE'S OVER. why the hell is everything so difficult?! even the subjects i expected to do well in disappointed me. esp my hist and ss. WAD THE HELL. i just wanna scream and scream and scream and scream. till this anger disappears. SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM!
hais. i chose to cry larh. although its useless to cry over spilt milk. but i tried my best. i tried. hais. oh wellsx. tmr's the results of whu's retaining, whu's promoting, whu's leaving. i just cant bear the thot of even having to sit in da classroom, listening to da decision made by the sch. to have to listen dat some pple are retaining or leaving. i dowan anione to leave or retain! like whu wans rite.
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hais. i'm so scared. so scared. not only for myself. but everyone. everyone. i want everyone in 3g3 to get promoted to sec 4s. EVERYONE. no one to retain or leave. i want everyone to hand in hand together get promoted to sec 4 and take our o's together. HAIS! i feel frigging sad and disappointed. i put in lotsa lotsa effort for this exam kiesx?! i forgo everything. going out, computer, even eating? hah. always studie until sae 'later den eat larh', 'later den eat larh.' den can 10++pm still hafnt eat dinner. until i dun eat. no appetite. haisx.
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got pple nv studie until the dae itself. can get higher den me. hao shi bai orh. SHI BAI SHI BAI. dats wad i am. mebbe i shld swear off studying. run off to timbuktu. become urhhh. tribal princess. lol.
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i just wanna scream and scream and scream and scream. i feel so screwed and defeated. how can i studie and still do badly?! wad shld i do to score?! studie until i go crazie?! pls larh. dere's more to life den just exams. but too bad i was born in singapore dat i practically haf no life. all thanks to exams. and sch. *pui* if i nv studied and i do badly. fine! i deserve it. but to study like mad and yet get so low. its so demoralising. so hurting. so EVERYTHING. mebbe i shld just give up and not study. i want a smarter brain. so dat its more resulting for me to put in effort WIF a smart brain. wif no brain, 100000 times the effort i put in for this exam will not work. until i dunnoo whether to just luff at my stupidity or cry cuz of it. to luff or to cry is the only question i haf now.